Eight weeks...

Finally the day arrived and we got to see our little frostie!  Good heart beat and perfect size, exactly eight weeks!  We are very excited, especially BJ who was hanging out to see the heart beat.  I think it finally hit home for BJ that we might be finally having our own little person.  We also got some great news, good friends of ours are also expecting their second child only a couple of weeks after us.  I'm also on tender hooks to find out about another friend who is in the middle of her 2WW.  As with other couples going through IVF to conceive, I'm hoping and crossing my arms and legs, they get their BFP.

How far along: 8 weeks
Total weight change: No change
Maternity clothes: Too early
Stretch Marks: No
Movement: Too early
Sleep: Has got better, now just tired all the time
Best Moment This Past Week: Seeing Frostie's heart beat
Most Difficult Moment This Past Week: Starting to feel nauseous and sick every time I eat anything
Belly Button In or Out: Still in
Cravings/Aversions: Had a massive craving for garlic bread last week but no aversions to anything in particular just all food
Symptoms: Sore boobs are getting better, but now have been taken over by nausea
What I'm Looking Forward To: Easter, having some time off work and reaching the twelve week mark

Rainbows...

We have been getting a lot of rain in the past eight months here in North Queensland.  Since August we have been experiencing over 300mm (or 118.1in) every month and sometimes as much as 70cm (or 27.6in) in half an hour.  Other than making it hard to do laundry it also means there have been lots of rainbows.  And I love rainbows.  On Boxing Day last year, I saw the best rainbow.  You could see the entire rainbow, from beginning to end.  I must have stood on the patio for half an hour just looking at it.  Because it was so close and big, I couldn't take a photo of the whole thing.  It was beautiful. 

Which brings me to a quote I saw this week by Dolly Parton that you could relate to any aspect of life but I thought it was really appropriate for infertility -

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain"

To get my little rainbow (BFP) I've had to put up with two and a half years of rain.  That's a lot of laundry and a lot of tears.  Quiet tears in the shower by myself and loud, full body sobs while being held by BJ. 

Now some people only have a little bit of rain to put up with and some people have to put up with years of pouring rain.  I hope if it is still raining where you are, it's not long before the clouds open up and you get your rainbow.

6 week update...

How far along: 6 weeks, one day
Total weight change: no change
Maternity clothes: Too early
Stretch Marks: No
Movement: Too early
Sleep: Getting to sleep has been an issue for the past week and a bit
Best Moment This Past Week: Getting to the 6 week mark, my own personal milestone and buying my first baby book
Most Difficult Moment This Past Week: Being really stressed out at work, and worrying it will affect the baby.  Worry is now just part of life
Belly Button In or Out: Still in
Cravings/Aversions: Walked past a kebab shop and had a major aversion to the cooking meat
Symptoms: Bloated and sore boobs are my major symptom at the moment, hoping the luck continues
What I'm Looking Forward To: Finally having a weekend at home and less than two weeks to my first ob appointment and scan!

Update...

Second blood test went well, my levels are rising and currently at 2500!  Things are looking good, hopefully I can start to relax and start to enjoy the sore boobs, nausea and tiredness!

Five weeks...

Five weeks down, thirty-five (hopefully) to go!  I've got another blood test on Wednesday which will hopefully go well.  My six and a half week scan has been extended out to eight weeks due to BJ's work schedule.  I wish it was earlier but it's important to have BJ with me and I think he was worried I'd go without him, poor guy!  So my first scan is on Monday 28th March, which at the moment seems like a lifetime away but I'm sure it will go by in a flash. 

On the weekend we went and visited my family for my cousin’s engagement party.  My family live four hours south and I haven't seen them since New Year’s so it was lovely to catch up with them.  It was going to be either an alcohol hazed weekend pity party or yay I'm pregnant and now the designated driver for the next twelve months party.  Thankfully it was the latter! 

Thrilled but terrified...

I am happy to announce that I am officially pregnant for the first time in my life!  I got my BFP!  We are thrilled but terrified now, as an even nervous wait begins - the first twelve weeks. 

Last night I was pretty down in the dumps, we both didn’t sleep very well and I woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach.  I was not looking forward to getting THE phone call.  When it finally came though I was in a meeting and had to call them back.  There is absolutely no privacy in my office, so I took a walk outside and gave them a call back.  I started crying when she gave me the good news I just couldn’t believe it had finally happened for us.  I know its early days yet, but just getting to this point is a huge step and I’m so grateful to be able to POAS and it come up positive!  My levels needed to be above 40 and I am a solid 240!

One of my first thoughts was all of you still unable to get your positive result and my heart goes out to you.  I know we’re very lucky to get our good news today and my thoughts and prayers are with you still trying.

Now we wait until next week, another blood test on Wednesday and then my first scan in around three weeks.  BJ is away at the “official” six week mark, so I’m going to talk with the doctor about having my scan either later in the week or the following week so he can come with me!  Thanks to everyone for their messages of support, they really mean a lot!  Good luck on your own journey!

Bundle of nervous...

One more sleep to go and I’m a bundle of nervous about the test tomorrow.  I’m working tomorrow so I’ll get the call at work, not the easiest situation for a negative result.  My big boss is the only one at work who knows what’s going and thankfully (might be the wrong word) he’s had to go through fertility treatments for his two beautiful children so he’s very understanding about me taking time off when I need it.  If we get the BFN I’m suspecting, and I’m feeling low I might be able to come home at least.  The nurses at the clinic called at 10am last time and I couldn’t leave for the rest of the day.  It was the hardest and longest day ever. 

Cramps showed their ugly head yesterday but today they’ve gone again.  No spotting, which was the early symptom last time but the progynova is probably keeping them at bay for the time being. 

I’ll let you know how I go tomorrow fingers crossed I’ll receive some good news!